The Captain
It's been a few days since they told me my boobs were dense (here's where I wish that I were a guy, and the docs told me my dick was dense, then I could say, "So you're saying I'm thick headed?") As the days pass from announcement to verdict, I'm finding a bit of my old self returning, but as that happens, I find strange places in me that I never knew I had before.
Case in point -- I had a dream that I was on a cruise ship, returning from a brief tour of the world. As the ship is cruising to port, I find myself with up front with the captain. He looks at his stop watch and there are only 13 seconds left. So he stops the watch -- stops time -- so we can finish the cruise and still arrive at our destined time.
The Husband says it's a dream about facing my mortality. He says I'm afraid of growing old, afraid I won't get to see and do everything I want to... afraid to accept the fact that there's only one cruise, and when it's over, it's over. I say it's a dream about facing the fact that time may be running out... will in fact run out sooner or later, regardless of my boob... understanding that the captain is the only one with the power to stop the countdown so I can finish my cruise.
My kids toy around with not believing in God. I've always told them that it's okay to say, "I don't believe what you believe" because faith is personal -- it's not something someone can TELL you that you believe. If you believe because Mom and Dad say so, then it's not faith, it's rule. So deny what you've been taught so that you can find it for yourself -- believe it because you feel it, know it, live it. But lately I've been asking them to curb their questioning and just let me have my peace with the captain.
In other news:
We went to an art show last night. It was ... bizarre. I'm beginning to think that if I buy a paint brush, throw up on a canvas, then paint over the pattern of vomit, I too can be an artist. The Daughter says I have no appreciation for abstract art.
The Husband just called and said that he has found the solution to my photography project -- it awaits me. So I have to go load up Diana and Holga and head out on an adventure now.
Have a pleasant Saturday, friends, and I'll touch base with you later on.
Case in point -- I had a dream that I was on a cruise ship, returning from a brief tour of the world. As the ship is cruising to port, I find myself with up front with the captain. He looks at his stop watch and there are only 13 seconds left. So he stops the watch -- stops time -- so we can finish the cruise and still arrive at our destined time.
The Husband says it's a dream about facing my mortality. He says I'm afraid of growing old, afraid I won't get to see and do everything I want to... afraid to accept the fact that there's only one cruise, and when it's over, it's over. I say it's a dream about facing the fact that time may be running out... will in fact run out sooner or later, regardless of my boob... understanding that the captain is the only one with the power to stop the countdown so I can finish my cruise.
My kids toy around with not believing in God. I've always told them that it's okay to say, "I don't believe what you believe" because faith is personal -- it's not something someone can TELL you that you believe. If you believe because Mom and Dad say so, then it's not faith, it's rule. So deny what you've been taught so that you can find it for yourself -- believe it because you feel it, know it, live it. But lately I've been asking them to curb their questioning and just let me have my peace with the captain.
In other news:
We went to an art show last night. It was ... bizarre. I'm beginning to think that if I buy a paint brush, throw up on a canvas, then paint over the pattern of vomit, I too can be an artist. The Daughter says I have no appreciation for abstract art.
The Husband just called and said that he has found the solution to my photography project -- it awaits me. So I have to go load up Diana and Holga and head out on an adventure now.
Have a pleasant Saturday, friends, and I'll touch base with you later on.
posted by Robin at 8:26 AM
3 Comments:
I have had the same exact thoughts about throwing some paint up on a canvas and asking thousands for it.
((((HUGS))))
To dream that you are on a cruise, represents some emotional journey that you are going through. The dream may also be a pun on "cruising" through situations in your life with ease and little effort.
To see a ship in your dream, denotes that you are exploring aspects of your emotions and unconscious mind. The state and condition of the ship is indicative of your emotional state. If it is a cruise ship, then it suggests pleasant moods.
To see or wear a watch in your dream, suggests that you need to be more carefree and spontaneous. You are feeling limited and constrained.
Thirteen is a paradoxical number which means death and birth, end and beginning, and change and transition. It is symbolic of obstacles that are standing on your way and must overcome. You must work hard and persevere in order to succeed and reach your goals.
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I never thought I would be one to like abstract art, but I find myself very much liking Jackson Pollock & Kadinsky.
I have fibro-cystic boobs. I'm holding out hope you have the same. Please keep us posted.
M~
Both dream interps sound personal and pretty accurate. Both issues are connected, for sure. :)
I admire you so much for showing your kids what you believe, and then letting then go through their own personal journey/exploration. I think there is happiness in all beliefs. I also think that, if there is a God, he is not vain. In other words, he won't care if your kids believe in him or not, as long as they're good loving people. I've never understood people ascribing human characteristics to their god. I really admire your parenting. What a wonderful world it would be if everyone approached spirituality that way.
~S :)
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